It’s been over a year. For a lot of reasons. Good and bad.

As I shared before, my sister stopped speaking to me (it’s been over a year now), and she doesn’t like that I openly share my life on here. For a long time I stopped doing this, even the whole purpose of starting this “blog” was to have a safe space for me to do just that. Tell my story to the un-listening void and be held accountable for writing consistently. And then I realized, she already doesn’t speak to me fo other various reasons. Why should I stop this one thing that I was doing for myself? How could it really get any worse if her removing herself and her family from my life is already the literal worst thing she could possibly do to me, well, that’s already been done. So now instead of a family, all I have is this. So I might as well make use of it.

Now I didn’t come here to talk even more about my sister, although that is a vast topic. Or my family much. Although there have been quite a few developments and things to share. I will eventually. Hopefully.

No, I came to tell you about me. About what I’ve been up to. I got a new job and I’ve been there almost a year. I hope to never leave until I’ve done all the growing I can do there, which I’m thinking/ hoping will be a while. I started out in the call center at half what I made at Amazon. Within 2 weeks after training I got a promotion and began training new hires (similar to what I did at Amazon), and shortly after that I got another promotion and now I am the Internal Communication Specialist. And I love it. I love my team, I love the company (Smile Direct Club), and I’m finally in a place where I am financially stable for the most part and am starting to try and pay off some debt.

The only wrench in that plan is that my sweet kitty, Margot, and I, BOTH have to get some dental work done (how cute). I have to get all of my wisdom teeth pulled (at 30)! And Margot has to get some teefers pulled too (infection). :( So those bills will be a minor setback, but overall I am incredibly grateful to be where I am right now and hope to high heaven that I don’t fuck it up.

I don’t feel in the right emotional space to share all the other ongoings just yet, but hopefully they will come soon. I started going to therapy recently (have only been twice) and don’t feel like he has been much use and I’d rather see a woman, but I’m trying to keep an open mind and give him a chance.

I know this post/ update is pretty boring, but don’t worry, I’ll get into all the family drama, diagnosis, 23 and me results, loss of all real friends, new roommates, getting sued, and multiple breakups, and one big heartbreak next time. :)

Until then . . .